I wish every painting would work, but it doesn’t of course,
even when I pull out every stop and throw everything I have at it. I use lots
of mental talk/tricks to create a state of mind where I feel free to risk, to
try anything, even to ruin something good for the chance of making something
better, often not knowing if that state of mind is even helpful in a particular
circumstance. I’m almost always trying to push myself to go faster and not get
stuck in one area; to make a mark and not look back; to work with joy.
That last—work with joy/do what’s fun—may be the best
injunction. Sometimes you may be feeling: this is serious; I need to express
grandeur/Beauty/respect/awe—and there’s a place for all those emotions/expressions
in any painting. But I think playfulness/fun trumps them all in importance,
because of the joy that is at the heart of fun—it’s powerful enough to overcome
the inevitable frustration of trying to get something “right,” to lift your
spirits through the moments of fatigue and difficulty, and to somehow let you
participate in the beauty around you. Experiencing beauty IS joyful, beauty IS
joy, so to work with joy is to use what’s flowing through you if you’re open to
it (the beauty around you). It’s a “high,” and that spirit can be reflected in
what you do—and to see that spirit reflected in paint also creates a “high.”
If
you’re working and struggling, wondering how to save yourself and your painting
or even how to approach something at all, err on the side of fun: go forward
with a light heart and a sense of exploration/experimentation—not trying to get
it right, but to play.
“Exuberance is beauty.” – William Blake